Blogged after what feels like an eternity
I’ve always thought to put this up on my blog. Whenever I think about it, I think of how the sentences should be, word choices, the flow, the character, call it what you want. But now I feel like I couldn’t even produce one coherent sentence lol.
I slept early last night, and now here I am at 5.31 am on Saturday morning (no I didn’t set an alarm clock, sounds like a milestone achievement right ?), perching on the other side of my bed, ready to spill everything that has been bugging me for a long time. A long overdue post ? perhaps. i am sorry if my writing has becoming a bit rusty anyway. this is a long post that i've been dreading to write, so i'm just gonna blurt everything i could remember now so please excuse my grammar mistakes and such as this is hard for me to write so i'm just letting my hands dance to the rhythm of my emotions. i just don't want to forget this part of my life. It is about bits and pieces of my journey in law school. In less than 2 days, I will enter the sixth semester, where I need to shove my head into 7 different law books. Am I ready ? spiritually not but let say I am excited to learn new things.
I don’t know if this occurs to anyone else in my batch, but when I first stepped into law school, semester 6 is that semester im looking forward to. I just couldn’t fathom how my senior crammed all the cases, statutes, issues etc of 7 different law areas into their heads. Im in awe and I have so much respect for them. For me, if you made it to part 6 of uitm law school, you almost made it to a law degree. And im just one step away in getting there, inshaallah. The first part of the journey was rather tough, it took a lot of patience, resilience and prayers. It was gloomy, foggy, with no sight of the rainbow. Failures make me feel incredibly sad, one where it leaves you crying for days but your tears don’t seem to be able to stop flowing. Mine was an enraged waterfall. Tears is the only lingo I could utter. it makes you think that you don’t belong there. And you have no future. But somehow, I believe it is my parents’ duas and support that keep me sane throughout the years.
It is just all uncertainties. Entering 2nd semester, I discover that I have no rezeki in mooting. Something I just grew a passion in. My pointer dropped below 3, everything seems to be going downhill. I feel like I am the ugly duckling from the flock of ducks. People start to look at me differently, they just avoid associating with me because, im just dumb. I am the one who had to be thrown out from the team because of my grade. How that sounds to you? It was depressing to be surrounded by braniacs but you just the one that not good enough. Even when my pointer has recovered, I am now in part 6, and soon entering final year which triple the stress and works piling up. There is no way I would go for mooting again, representing your university takes a huge commitment and responsibility. If you think its just for another instagram post to flaunt people that you managed to survive the rigours you had in mooting for the sake of a participation certificate, youre wrong, and its just wrong. Aim for winning, make all those hardworks paid off. It is a dream to put your university name on the world map right? and considering my plate now, I cant. Therefore, I would just settle for studying and enrolling in other things that would add knowledge for my supposed legal career. My prime focus would be just studying then.
Besides the little introspection ive done on my goals and dreams, life has been very average lately. Ive been doing the usual study, work, study, netflix, new reads, and back to studying. I didn’t travel much lately due to my own financial constraints. Still hoping for the day my dad decided to take me to europe again (amin). I have been thinking to do something else. something remarkable in life. something that my kids will be inspired by. Let me narrow it down, something that will impress my future employers. I already have the vision of where I want to work in mind, im aiming to go there. But the key is to impress the employers to take me. Am i marketable ? With only one experience in mooting, I know it is never enough. Now lets talk about interning.
Hopping on the year of 2020 got me indulging into another internship series, but this time around it comes with credit hour, which equals to a compulsory ‘paper’ required for last semester. This would be my third time after Shukor & Co in assisting their litigation firm and EzriLaw, doing more on conveyancing matters. The third firm is the nearest to my house, less traffic, and the working hours was 9-6. its a whole new experience for me because its a chinese firm. i never work with chinese before and i dont have a chinese friend, so i guess this would be a great start. their work ethics are just a lot lot different from the previous 2. recalling my first day, I remembered I cried on my way back home, I told my dad I was getting scolded for a mistake. Now when I think about it again, my dad should have just punch me cause its so silly. But im fragile and nobody should scold me. But guys, this is where I learnt to be tough and do better the next day. Let me introduce you to my colleagues in my department, there are 2 people, I named them THE SHOUTING LADY and THE MILKTEA LADY. Next, there are 2 partners in my firm and they are just so so nice ! one is my supervisor, i would call her THE VERY MOTHERLY BUT FIRM BUT SOMETIMES SHE IS LIKE MIRANDA PRIESTLY FROM THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA LADY and the other one THE VERY SISTER-LIKE DOLL-LOOK SOFT SPOKEN LADY.
I would start off by saying that theyre very nice, kind and helpful people.
THE SHOUTING LADY - no matter how annoying she can be, she’s the first one who welcome me to the firm. She smiled, she let me in and showed me my cubicle. She took me on a little ‘tour’ at my new workplace, and when I request for a space to pray, she really looks for a convenient space for me to pray which is in the files store room, in between the file shelves. It really touched me actually. Even thou she is not a muslim, but I pray that Allah bless her with something for that. She is the first one who explains me the normal work routine, and assigned my first ever work. Then come the shouting part, oh this lady just lovess to shout. She shout at me, shout at partners (this girl is just lazy to get her ass up to inform the lawyer that a client is coming so she shout her name) and basically everyone. She has the RBF that I wouldnt bother to look at. She scolded me on my first day for some mistakes I made, and I was so frightened I held my tears the whole day until I came home and burst out. I remember I told Amir that im not going to that place again the next day, it is just not for me. Maybe its how the chinese working, nobody should make a mistake even if its your first time doing something you arent familiar with on your first day. But then as the days went by, its just her. Trust me
THE MILKTEA LADY - she’s a 62 years old lady, super niceeeeeee one. The one that should be protected at all cost. Shes like the urban mom and whenever I look at her, I think of reese witherspoon, except shes younger by 2 decades (perhaps). shes using iphone 11 at the age of 62, very cute and protective (i dont know whats the point of mentioning the iphone part but considering her age i think its cool). I remember on my second day, she smiled and asked me ‘are you frightened when you first come here ?’. that is when my heart melted. She smiled and tell me stories about past interns and told me to not bother with THE SHOUTING LADY, turns out nobody likes her. THE MILKTEA LADY is like my guardian angel, shes protective, comforting, she is the only one who gives me a clear instruction of my work until I understand the whole process and the importance of every documents we served. I finally understand the importance of the work im doing. She told me she has a cat too, and the name is MILKTEA. Hence that explains. I once asked her why she just dont stay at home, considering her age ? and she asked me back what should I do between the 4 walls ? she told me if she didn’t working, she would go to Tesco and play games there until she forget how to cook. Yes, shes funny sometimes, I am definitely going to miss her the most. I hope someday I would get to see her again, perhaps bumped into her while shes doing tai-chi at some park in the morning
THE VERY MOTHERLY BUT FIRM BUT SOMETIMES SHE IS LIKE MIRANDA PRIESTLY FROM THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA LADY - I think this explains a lot HAHA !!! though how nice she is, I don’t want to mess with her. There are times she was stressed out and she raised her voice at me, but I definitely feel guilty for that because I admit my mistake. I am actually inspired by her. So far, she is the most hardworking advocate I have ever seen. There are times she would borrow the computer in my cubicle because of some data she kept in there, and the next day when I check the recent document was opened, it was on 9.48pm. This woman came to work earlier than 9 am and went home nearly at 10pm. She hardly had her lunch too, because usually the clients came during lunch hour. Shes smart, shes fast, hardworking and very determined. She is like Miranda Priestly in a good way, and I am Andrea Sachs trying to impress her every single day. I am gonna miss her too. She introduced me to a lot of things I never had chance of doing in my previous 2 internship experience - she asked me to prepare documents which cost 100 bucks each, she assigned me to talk to clients through phone, call Land Office, call banks, call MPSP, Indah Water, you name it. She leave me alone with the clients to assist them. She called out my mistake in front of the client. Im thankful for all those things she had done for me, she taught me to be resilient and shes the reason I challenged myself to do better every single day.
THE VERY SISTER-LIKE DOLL-LOOK SOFT SPOKEN LADY - also a partner in the firm. She has a fit figure, a life mannequin. Shes also like the kind of sister who will get mad at you if you didn’t knock her door but just barge in. Im not very closed to her, but shes like an adorable sister to me. She seldomly asked for my help, but I remember her advice once about ethics with a lawyer. Something I would keep in mind forever. She waved goodbye at me once when I leave to work, and I find that very nice. I will miss her too.
Therefore, thats the end of it. Yesterday was my last day there, other than them, I will definitely miss all the dramas they had, I will miss my frequent visit to subway and secret recipe too. I will miss the busy little town of jalan raja uda. And I am thankful for the experience. Therefore, this mark my 3rd time of interning. And there will be definitely more coming.
I hope I can made another separate blog post of my second internship at EzriLaw too. If you want to read about my first interning which was before I even enter degree years, you can read it here. And I hope I can write about my student exchange experience in Bangkok with you guys too. Lets see if I keep my promise hahah. Till next time <3