Updated life in a nutshell

I cant believe its already 26^th, but to be honest I do feel like this month is the longest month I’d ever lived in my entire life. When you wake up tomorrow, its still 27^th january, when in fact you already feel like its 64^th. Sigh..but deep down, im grateful that january doesnt end yet, digesting the fact that we are already in 2018 is something so incredulous to me. i feel like 2017 just went by like a piece of rag being carried away by strong wind and lost in the air. It feels like my grip to something that im holding on to is slowly loosing and I kept on regretting that. I still remember the night of the new year, when everyone else went celebrating it outside, I was in my room at the college, so-called studying, but I made myself a cup of hot chocolate drinks while watching fireworks virtually on everyone’s instastory. Boring but somehow I didn’t regret staying in my room, because at least all my friends and my roomates were there with me. When the clock strikes 12, ‘happy new year anis’ they said. I wish them the same thing too, and then we had some banters before we hit the sack respectively. What a sedentary lifestyle I had

I really miss writing to be honest, I miss spilling out my thoughts even though theyre not something significant that you can ponder all day long. But that just what I love to do, started writing without having a direction, it really feels like a great escape. However if this is an english essay, I probably scored only 4/10. 4 for effort for writing many paragraphs and exceeding minimum word counts and also for the ink I’d wasted. Sometimes I do thought about writing something meaningful, so that people can gain something when theyre done reading my posts. But that requires me to gather all my thoughts and be able to finally type it out, and also overcome my sloth to try and get back in my writing grooves. However, 1. I don’t have readers 2. gathering my thoughts will take usually a year minimum, plus theyre rubbish. Not a cool idea. So im going to just rant about my life, the end

Early this year, I just finished with my final exam, I choose to skip that because that was such a terrible kickstart of 2018. I had several mental breakdowns in between the paper gaps, and all I wish was for the exam to end faster and go home. Believe it or not, the last time I was home was back in october, evidence is in my latest post which was written back in october when I was having my one week mid-sem break at home. Moving on, lately ive been forced to deal with the realities of the world and IM TERRIFIED. Next sem I will be living outside, cause no more college will be provided. Well, they do but its going to be so tough and the chances to get college for next sem is really 0.01 % especially when you less involved in college activities to claim for college coupons. Living outside of the campus really give me the feeling of uneasiness. I just had a lot of things in my mind. My life has been in a constant turmoil ever since. Meeting house agents, constant talk of $$$$$$, finding significance in my life both now and in the future, the anxiety I feel towards the inevitable unknown that is the dim of light is not as scary as it used to be. Believe me, writing about this alone is really making me feel discomfort. Did I mentioned about me only having one week break when it supposed to be a month of sem break ? yeah im currently reading a scholarly journal on fair and equittable treatment under international investment law, a very Greek article to me. But I have no choice, for the sake of namco which will be held by the end of march this year, a lot of things I had to sacrifice, and yet being fully committed to this.

Now lets hop into some less-stress inducing matter. Here im going to share some photos from happier days.

despite having stress over chapters i had to covered for final exam, at least im grateful that my study table at college which used to be so messy now looking wide and 'less-chaos'. i remember spent the whole morning de-cluttering my stuff and i just enjoyed the productive morning so much

Stranger Things // How to Get Away with Murder

this two series are one of things that went on during my disappearance from this blog

Both Stranger Things and How To Get Away with Murder, omg why didn't I start sooner. I watched Stranger Things bcs i dont want to miss the bandwagon since this series had become the talk of the town, and true, i finished both season 1 and 2 in just 3 days perhaps? i love the whole squad so much ! For HTGAWM,  I love this show but I'm still in the first season. They're at season 4 or 5 now. But anyway, I was hooked since the first episode. It's basically about these law students who are in a Criminal Law class, and they basically deal with real murder cases in court. But with a twist. Just watch the first episode and you'll get what I mean. It's really good and you don't really know what's actually going on unless you keep watching. You figure it out as the series progresses and I love it.

GOOD FOOD

Kedai Makan Fei dan Ali - please try the salted tempura rice ! highly recommended

 

Coboroy - i love the shell out concept, chilli chicken rice also good ! 

even take away the chilli chicken, cause it tastes so good ! request for more chilli flakes if you want extra spicy

Gula Cakery -  i cant remember the name on the menu of the spagetti carbonara, but i think it has 'mac and cheese' something in the name. it tastes really good ! the sauce is so creamy, everything on the plate is perfect ! the mango cake was also not a disappointment. This place is famous for their dessert, so for those who have guilty pleasure for desserts, put this place on your bucket list !

Shiffa's greatest escape, EHSAN !!! the concept is like a high-class 'mamak' cause they served mamak food, i love the naan cheese, palatable and spoon-and-fork licking good ! quite pricey for a mamak food but worth it

Restoran Ani Sup Utara - heck i wish i know this place earlier, i really love this type of dish, feels like home ! For RM 7.50 , you can get a plate of rice added with salted egg, sliced cucumber, sambal and also a bowl of soup. So goooooooood !!!!!

Home

Zaid is into archery now and he's a pro already, went to so many competitions and winning some too !

went out with my bestfriend, Zarifah yesterday ! Initially we planned to go to Pantai Merdeka to have the famous 'cendol ice cream' there, but we're running out of time yesterday so just had dinner at the newly-opened kfc in my hometown, it was really fun to spend time together after so long !

How safiyya is being bullied

Some random shots

post-forum, photo was taken at 7pm hahaha excuse the 'barai' face

Funfair night out !

Library night out with adriana searching for reference books - one of the stressful nights i had there

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till next post ♥

All things Bright and Beautiful

After practically 3 months of not utilising my brain, my writing skills has becoming so rusty. You can tell by reading my latest posts (starting from..May?), albeit working part time at Shukor & Co for 3 consecutive months, which i admit twas the most productive 3 months of my life, it somehow doesnt helped me to be more intellectual in person. My mind works at a snail pace with it still remaining in hibernation mode. I need to change the way I live & engaging myself with more interpersonal/basic at-home skills- be a morning person, do more outdoor activities/gardening, help with house chores/cooking, less spent on my phone, spend more time with safiya, keeping my stuff clutter-free, read more non-fiction books, et cetera

Look at me, alive and Chicking

A little life update - i got accepted into Law school

For the first time in my life, i wasnt really thrilled about it. A plethora of emotions suffocated me at a time. I was grateful, it was my first choice after all. Some of my acquaintances didnt even get into their first choices. Some didnt even get to enter a university/educational institutions for their tertiary studies. I hope everything is at ease for them. All those hours road journey to Kl for an interview which only lasted approximately 15 bloody minutes, money spent along the way, physical and mental fatigue we felt, especially my dad who obviously didnt have enough rest due to heap of works he had in his office, it was all paid off, thank you didnt suffice !

The only thing that bothered me is im still unsure of my decision, i remember the scruples i had in studying law during my foundation. The rigours, the challenges that i had to tackle made me realise that it certainly isn't for the wishy-washy, weak-minded (cough*me*shrugs). And i dont know if im ready for the 2nd round, devoting my soul for another 4 yrs in this course. All in all, i eventually took it up. Ive come all the way for this, and i hope i enjoy my degree life as much as i enjoy my sem breaks, with EXCELLENT & CONSISTENT GPA, SUPPORTING MATES & FINANCIALLY STABLE WITHOUT BURDENING MY PARENTS MUCH & CREATING MORE MEANINGFUL MEMORIES AS A STUDENT. I believe if He has designed this path for me, it is really for me, He knows im able to do this. All i need is having faith in myself, give myself chance to do things out of my comfort zone, teach myself to not afraid of people expectations, always give best shots at everything which overall, focusing more in investing in myself. 

Here’s some quotes i live by, I dont remember where i read it, but it slightly sounds like this

The road you're trudging now may seem uphill. Keep trudging it. You will be able to strut proudly later on.

and

Remember what strength is? Strength is when you do not give up when everyone else expects you to do so.

I believe some of you had read those somewhere, i also do the same until now i realize how impactful those words in my dreading situations right now.

Feeling good? now lets hop into some less stress-inducing matters

Yesterday i went through all my old photos in the laptop, the 7 yrs old me, the 9 yrs old me, the 11 yrs old me, the 14yrs old me. I feel so content looking at those, childhood memories suddenly flooding my mind, and i cant resist keeping them to myself, regardless how ugly i looked back in 2010. I shared some of them with my closest primary school babes, Umairah and Sarah. From cursing each other to finally spill more memories which some i had forgotten ! It was fun, even though the conversation went virtually. It was so exciting when we discovered a lot more secrets of each other, our crush, boyfiends, boys we hate, girls we hate, how we managed to get boyfiends/secret admirers looking like that...hahahaha. We were so wild during those days, so carefree :D Did i mentioned our old photos? ohmygosh we looked adhoribble 

2017 us !

2010. what the actual..yes we looked adhorrible

It all started with one photo...which was the photo above

 their reactions are priceless, sarah is the most polite/naive among us, she just utter the f word hahahaha

 I will just share the highlights of our conversations. reminiscing our kafa days !

we used to have a lot of squabbles with boys, it even involved physical fights haha. Girl power, when its the boys' turns to attack, we ran into girls' toilet/prayer room to save ourselves. Genius.

Here goes the naughty part, reminiscing our lovey-dovey days. Imagine, we were only in standard 4, and already exchanged love letters with the boys in standard 6 ! It was in 2008 ! I couldve slapped the so-called innocent 10 years old me xD

 I LAUGHED SNORTS AND TEARS AT THIS. SARAH GAVE HER HOME PHONE NUMBER TO HER CRUSH, IN 2008, I RATHER DIE

see? one of the hottest standard 6 boys just asked sarah to date 

we were so wild and badass during those days, no wonder we always got vicious look from girls seniors, and i still remember one of them even spilled to a discipline teacher my relationship with one of the hottest standard 6 boy (even girls from other school want to date him!) after the news spread, we eventually became the talk of the whole school. fortunately the teacher didnt take action, or informed my parents, maybe because my grades were good, not even declining even though i was busy exchanging letters with him ! hehe

i couldnt exposed the rest of the conversations bcs a lot of names were involved & also a lot of humiliating experience were shared!

now, i realized i had an amazing childhood memories, we were so fun, yet carefree. we went thru ups and downs together, joys and tears, it was actually sad that i had lost contact with majority of us. however it feels more awkward to start everything from the beginning again, cause nothing will be the same. i promised with all my might, i hope the current friendship i had with all my friends and loved ones, will always strengthen from time to time, blossoming until death separates us.

USA, i still remember vividly how the 12 years old Umairah, Sarah and me creates the abbreviation of us. we came up with the name while sashaying to the canteen, for lunch break ! Ha-ha

Wham !

Ola !

Did any of you notice that exclamation mark over there ? Unusual isn't it ? Teehee, that's because I'm suuuuper duper excited to be blogging again ! I've missed my little comfortable space where I can just write and for the longest time, spilling my thoughts and what not. So many things to write but so little time :'( I've been sooo busy with the assignments (for carrymarks of course) and final exam, and thats why I couldn't find the time to update my blog. 

place i wanted to be right now 

But I'm currently in the midst of my final semester exam, so im going to make this really short as possible. 3 papers down, 4 to go ! First week of examination was smooth-sailing albeit filled with the sense of trepidation at more upcoming papers. i think im doing well on Economics (last tuesday), on Introduction to Law III aka Law 087  (last thursday) and the recent paper was Fundamental of Shariah aka CTU086 (yesterday) was a complete opposite. I admit i wasnt really prepared for that paper, i did a bit because i keep on chanting 'this is the last time i open this book-this is the last time i open this book' so i just wanted to give the best of me. and yeah..another one perhaps because the credit hour was 2.0 and i personally think i can do well since i already learned Syariah subject in high school, but nahh i kinda flop yesterday. but lets just pray for the best and i really hope my CTU marks doesnt spoiled my final cgpa soon. 

Its okay, let the past be the past, my upcoming papers was Introduction to Law II aka Law037 (this coming Thursday) and Psychology and Criminology aka Law 039 paper on this friday. Since i have a lots of time to prepare for both, im aiming for As for both subject. please please aminkan ! and also next week there are another two papers which are Contemporary Global and Legal Issues aka Law 088 and also Academic Writing as the last paper on wednesdayyy and yeayyy end of final exam !

I dont have any plan on what im going to do after foundation, i have approximately 5 months break before degree life starts on September, and i personally not readyyy to enter degree years. But lets just sink that for a moment, because i wanted to enjoy every little pleasure i had here in UiTM Dengkil. I had so much fun here, surrounded by good, thoughtful and wacky people who accepted me and always have my back, im totally grateful for that. This place had witnessed how much i had grown and changed to a better person, compared to the first time i set my foot here. It was a crazy ride despite the pressure and stress i had to deal with everyday. well im going to blog more on it soon inshaallah after im done with my final okay ? and also, Happy April ! to more cups of coffee and late night staying ups  ♥

x

Favourites : January

we are one day closer to february and i already put a halt on my january ha ha. since my new year resolution is i want to blog more, so ive been thinking on updating my blog every month, even if there are nothing interesting to be blog-ed about, i will just write on things that favors me on that month, even little things like getting praised from madam marina (my prominent lecturer this sem) would be great and become highlight of the month ! surely i will brag about it on all my sns ! oh simplest things that thrill me ;)

overall, january has been kind to me but still it was a kind of hectic month, i was quite devastated every day with due dates looming, assignments piled up, financial problem, eczema, tests and umm peer pressure. but alhamdulillah i managed to survive it all. maybe because ive been good with managing my time and i taught myself to be grateful every single day no matter how bad that day was. it all started when i discover the benefits of writing a journal or diary since my topic of my persuasive speech is 'why youth should have an online journal'. so i did a thorough research on it and at the same time was impressed by the benefits of writing  a journal. then one day during new year eve, i went out with my friends to a mall and i drop by at mph bookstores and i bought this !

so far im on a good track even though there were a day or two i missed it. this small pocket-sized journal isnt really convenient because the spaces provided on each day is quite small for a girl with big handwriting like me, but thats not really a big problem. i used this small notebook every day albeit how busy or bad my day was, i still write in it because i believe soon when i flipped those pages, i would be proud of myself. such a peak to the olden days is fascinating right ? I am an extremely sentimental person and I love the idea of being able to look back at what I did, what I went through and what I've learnt whilst growing up. even though i have this blog, but of course not everything in my life will be documented. It's good to be a little bit of a mystery, yes ? and by having a small book like this, i can spill out everything without fear of judging from the others because this considered as one of my privacy belongings that i would love to only keep it to myself. Haha.thus, i can concluded that i had made a good kick start of 2017. maybe i will be doing the same thing on more years to come, perhaps?

Muet Result

surpisingly i got band 5 ! im beyond grateful since the fact that i was half-prepared (i left my muet notebook in college, so i depended on notes shared through whatsapp by my friends)

Broga Hikes 

15th January, Sunday i went to Broga Hill for hiking organized by my co-curriculum club, Youth Club. i hate it, of course. i almost giving up in the middle of the hike, but i pushed myself because i dont want my crush to assume me as a lazy l-ass. i must maintain a good image in order to impress him, right ? #blowingnails (my mom better dont read this). and also, chanting 'im not a quitter' and 'dont give up' works wonders on OBVIOUSLY-LAZY-ASS-AND-NOT-FIT-GIRL like me and FINALLY, I MADE IT TO THE PEAK HELLYEAHAHHH ! the view at the peak was captivating and breathtakingly beautiful, we arrived at the peak approximately at 10 am (started hike at 7am kot) and i was pretty impressed with myself. there were games held at the peak, all of us were delegated into groups and we were assigned to do cheers and decide a creative group name in order to bring home more foods lol. other than that was taking a lot of pictures. spent merely an hour or two up there and turns out turun bukit is a lot easier than previous despite of gravity pull, the trail was a lot safer and not slippery compared to the first one. i had so much fun back then..and ofcourse my whole body aching badly the entire week.  i must have aging a lot :((((

Flashmob

i joined flashmob team again this sem, if last sem i joined it in conjunction to Merdeka Day, this sem is in conjunction to LiteAp week. i dont know what has gotten into me really but i enjoyed dancing so much. but this sem's team was a lot boring than the previous, we didnt took pictures after we done it and it was plain boring. i didnt enjoyed it much but since we will getting coupons, it fine. my lifespan there is depending on how many coupons i collected guys. HA HA

                                                                                                                                      Palace of Justice

it was on a rainy friday we went to palace of justice to watch real trial held there but unfortunately the case was postponed to the other day. but lucky us, the polis bantuan there pitied us and he took us into the bilik bicara where the case are usually held and explained briefly on all particular things we need to know inside. he also cheerfully answered our questions ! but we couldnt took pictures inside since it was prohibited. 

so after done visiting the trial room + its library and museum, we did took pictures at the outside.

look at all those thick, hard-cover law reports, digest and journals from various law school and countries

#teamjubahhitam #antisocial

this was taken while we were on our way to mcd at presint 2. so much love for the photosss <3

Class Photoshoot Session

it was on tuesday when we agreed on wearing white and blue for the class photoshoot. but me being stubborn, there was no single blue thread on my outfit on that day ha ha. but overall the photos were all fantastic. introducing - L6

the only one thing that we were really good at ^

BOGUMMIES <33333

I honestly couldnt survived law school without this crackheads who always full of shenanigans.

                                                                                                                                Lets Talk : Makeup

disclaimer : im not good in makeups but I AM A SUCKER FOR MAKEUP VIDEO TUTORIALS ON YOUTUBE ! i downloaded quite many and watched them whenever im bored. so i had purchased the basic one - foundation, eyeliner, lipstick and they works magic even though they cost only a few bucks. i couldnt afford buying the expensive one from Sephora, come to think of it, i even bought those basics one from Watson and SaSa using my allowance money ! shame on me. since it never against the law to splurge your allowance money on makeups, why not? but whatever, i still want to share my new bb cream and lipstick i bought this month.

Garnier BB Cream

I bought this after i watched syifa melvin everyday makeup tutorial on youtube and it looks good on her. GUYS, THIS ONLY COSTS AROUND RM17 from watson and it was beyond good. the texture is light, coverage is good as it able to cover redness and uneven skin tone on your face. kulit pun tak rosak and it stays longer than i thought.

Wet n Wild Megalast Lipstick in 912C In The Flesh (this sounds like some sort of war weapons)


to be honest, all the lipstick i bought before are in pink and natural and lighter shades. so this one i bought from sasa in the code of In The Flesh is my first ever darker-than-pink lipstick and i laahhvvv it. Pinky-nude shade. Really pretty for daytime. especially when my mood is sombre and i wasnt interested to going to classes on that day (im still a skipping class virgin alhamdulillah) i will apply this lipstick and turns out it boost my confident. this make sense guys, dont roll your eyes reading this :') 

 One thing I love about this lipstick is that it is super pigmented. Like one swipe is enough, I swear ! Lasts all day. Also, they cost less than 25 bucks and have several dupes for MAC lipsticks. Score. The only con of WNW lipsticks are that they're quite drying tho. A layer of lip balm is a must for me. I hate the packaging, and I hate how it gets on my teeth sometimes. but im planning to buy more of their lipsticks in darker shades - Cinnamon Spice, Spiked with Rum, Rose Bud and Sugar Plum Fairy.

New Laptop

^^^^^^

still contemplating whether i need to boost around about my new laptop or not but whatever, i still want to share it here. since i entered college, i never had a laptop on my own. i brought the old-fashioned one (our 10 years Toshiba laptop) to college and some of the system had out-dated and it was very hard for me. earlier this sem i also begging my parents to bring our current new laptop because there were lots of works required laptop to do this sem and they pitied me and yeah things have been better but still, it wasnt mine and whenever i went home i need to share it with the others. then my dad decided that i need my own laptop and seriously, its a funny story to begin with. my laptop is in blue colour guys ! 

tadaaaa

my parents insisted that i should take this colour because its fun to look at , the colour is pretty and this is the only laptop there that comes with white keyboards. i was anxious on taking this at first but now, I DIDNT REGRETTED IT AND I LOVEEEE IT

 and now i irrevocably love anything with the colour blue. it looks animesthetic (anime + aesthetic) to me. although i didnt watch anime but this baby blue+white colour combination of this laptop always reminds me of kawaii japanese stuff. i dont know how to describe this but i love every inch of it. this laptop is the basic one for student like me who only use microsoft words/presentation, google and binge watching movies. and the price was pretty affordable the processor were all good.  the only cons were the battery lifespan was quite short and it drained fast. 

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thats all for my january ! im currently on chinese new year break and im home for a week ! so many plans to catch up with my friends but honestly, i prefer staying home because believe me, ONE WEEK FLIES REALLY FAST.  i think that is all for now, hoping for a greater and blessed months, February please be fantastic !

Au Revoir