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4 October 2017

moot moot

Phew, it took quite some time for me to summon all my mental capacity and overcome my sloth to try and get back in my writing grooves. It was really hard to be zoned out, put aside the piles of assignments and mooting stuff and pending meetings, I am glad that im finally a bit carefree at this moment, I'm currently perched on a seat, cancelling out the noise in this computer section in library with Kuizz's Silences ft Haneri.. It has been so long since the last time I properly pen down my thoughts here, my greatest escape from reality! 

Really, my life has been such whirlwind since the weekend escapade I had with diana and syahidah, when, out of nowhere came to meet me here in shah alam. It was a great meet-ups even though just for a couple of hours, but it was suffice enough to cure my homesick, at least theyre like the closest to..my ’home’. Oh and also want to remember the kl trip I had with shiffa to kl previously on Friday (guys it had been two weeks), it was really really fun even though it was tiring cause we walked a lot around the city, but shiffa who has breadth of knowledge regarding public transport had showed me on how to use them, bought tokens at the tokens machine, ride mrt (highlight of the trip !), go to different stations and the feelings when u walked out of the stations and the view of different skyline looming ahead, exciting ! the best part about it is im experiencing so many firsts with my bestfriend, my first time eating Kyochon, my first time riding Mrt, my first time visiting Duck store which I have always wanted to visit, my first time wandering aimlessly around the city, just us and the world, commitments-free


Kuala Lumpur










Shah Alam


                                                                                                                                                   ♥

Well, the carefree-ness does not last long, so couple of days before I have been thinking of joining Interpart Mooting Competition which was held by the law faculty. I think it was a great platform for me to delve more in the world of legal practices, even though im still in my first semester. But the exposure is crucial right, so that when you know a lot of things in the course you’re taking, the knowledge you have will carve the path for you to achieve your goals and your dreams. It will become the catalyst, driving force for you to pursue it, so I think I want to give myself a chance to be out of my comfort zone, it has been so long since the last time I involve in a competition, the trepidation, the anxiety, I feel like im ready for it. Plus, it’s a team competition, so one team will be competing another team, which I think was cool cause at least i have to share the burdened with the others hahaha

But guys, I was wrong. I was wrong from the beginning, from the time I have thought about this competiton, from the time I first set my foot here, from the time I accepted the law degree offer, from the time I was borne, I was COMPLETELY wrong. It has been almost two weeks, and it was a one of the hellish ride I have ever experienced in my life. I woke up everyday with anxiety thinking about my submissions still lacking, the moment when your coaches gives homework during the training and demand them on the same day, spent the whole night doing research and walked to college from the faculty at subuh, skipping meals, lost count how many times I cried thinking how dumb and lacking I was compared to the other teammates, the trepidation u felt in every training sessions cause u don’t want to upset the coaches cause u didn’t prepared well for it, spent hours in front of the screen scouting for cases and authorities to support my grounds, no more quality sleep even though my body was tired but end up sleeps two hours later, arduous training, mentally drained, socially deprived, it was goddamn the greatest plot-twist in my life so far. I wish I can penned down in detailed on the things I had experienced in my mooting journey, but I am so bad at it,  I hope it remains as one of the ‘sweetest’ memories I had here in my mind, hope so. and all in all, i am so proud of myself to do crazy things that i dont think i will be able to do before 




But on the good side, I feel like my teams and I have a good chemistry, well of course because we were classmates during asasi, but the bond just have tighten more. We were so closed especially the girls, very supportive towards each other, and always have backs on each other, including the coaches, Nami and Abs ! Nami was great, very kind and generous, he always bought us supper especially when we finished training at midnight, usually at 2am, and offer rides to our college cause its very far from the faculty. Abs, don’t mess with this girl. She’s a genius, very committed and I cant even imagine her ‘resting-bitch face’ she gave everytime during submissions, total nightmare. the moment she bombard you with questions during your submissions, that is when you started questioning your life. But I love her, she have myriad personalities which I really adore, she really committed, willing to abandon her free time to have training sessions with us even though we all know she was busy preparing for Boston, she always tired but we are her priorities, she spilled so much knowledge which were all helpful in improving our skills yada yada, she care for each and one of us, she’s like a loving sister to us, her advices and hugs were so comforting, really. Thank you didn’t suffice. Everytime I feel like giving up, I always think of them and their sacrifices and their faith in us, they have devoted and sacrifices a lot of things, and the least I can do is make them proud by winning this competition !

I think that is all for now, I wish I can spill more but I have another things to do so, thanks for reading, au revoir !

19 September 2017

half malay half zombie

hello

finally im having the time to sit down (my MLS class was cancelled thank god) and am peacefully able to write in here again. syukur :') i am using the library's computer room now cause the internet connection here is better :') syukur again

this will be a very short one, im planning to start writing since the day of my arrival, but unable to do so due to so many things came up and need to be settled. it was so difficult to actually find my solitude here prolly because im always surrounded by people (read : kimi saikou clan). my first week here was smooth-sailing, albeit filled with sense of trepidation at the many assignments to come. my classmates are nice also, the lecturers are all okay so far. on the good side, im utterly grateful that all my classes start at 10 instead of the usual 8 back in asasi, which is good cause i actually can prepare myself for classes on that day better

on the other hand, i have to be honest, this place is totally an opposite to uitm dengkil. i grimaced once i entered the hostel booths for college registration, the surrounded buildings are so old, and gory.  i know back in dengkil we were spoiled so good with new buildings, good food, comfy rooms. i dont know if im going to like it, but hmph..as if i hv another options. my roomates, are alhamdulillah fine, as long as they pray 5 times a day, recite quran and .. hygienic, im okay. and dont get me started with the toilet

The past few days have been chaotic and tiring, I don't know if I'm the one who feels tired almost all the time or we all do. I'm just counting the days to the next public holiday so I could take a break. The thing is, I loathe weekdays so much I wish they don't exist. Lol kidding, of course they are fine. It's just that I have so many things to do on weekdays that makes me hate them. Sigh, I can be such an ungrateful homosapien at times. Sorry, I don't mean it. I am just tired.

so highlight of last week were.. okay i will start with tuesday, yeah it was insanely crazy and full of anxiousness + intimidation. to be honest, i think my nightmare came true, i totally jinxed myself on my first day (technically), since there was nothing we did on monday except for student registration and lunch and..went back to the hostel. so, TUESDAY, it was our first day to enter classes, met new classmates and lecturers and new environment. i remember the morning, me and shiffa went to HEA, bcs i need to check my Third Languange class, i dont know which class i had applied cause there was a problem with the system at the time im applying. i really hope it was Mandarin. so to be safe, i need to confirm it with the staff there, i need them to check it for me. end up, the staff was raising her voice at me which, oh fuck reminiscing it makes me want to puke, she was so rude and has no manner at all. there was a misunderstanding, she clearly confused with my question &  just humiliated me in front of other students who also queued at that time, i wish to disappeared into thin air at that time. but all in all, at least i know i actually in Arabic class, fine, i took it up anyway (as if i have other better options like arguing with her clearly on-her-period self)

wednesday, there were no class cause we have to attend a taklimat regarding the faculty, cocurriculum clubs (met cute seniors) yada yada, im grateful i was with my friends from asasi, we literally laugh snorts and tears throughout the whole day, i dont know how we find everything funny, but im thankful at least i can forget the HEA nightmare the day before. oh i forgot to mentioned, this university is really..big. i mean the place. there was no walking distance if u want to go to faculty or mosque or even..the bus stop. everything is so far from my hostel, even if u walk u will end up find a place to actually sit down and sip half of the mineral water bottle to quench the thirst and calm down. plus, the traffic condition here were bad, many cars and busses.  the roads were hilly, and u need to take the bus to go...almost everywhere. and there were so many times my friends and i were actually chose walking over riding a bus to the college, to the library, be it under the merciless scorching hot sun or wet rainy days. then you know the reason of why i usually go offline past 11, i always get quality sleep these days
wet and cold :(

i barely remember on what happened on thursday and friday, but i think theyre fine. hahahah. on weekends our schedule were also packed, on saturday we had a curriculum talk, but it was until 12 only. on sunday we had Moot workshop (i know right, my seniors were so flash) which lasted the whole day. it was a looooooooooooonnnnggggggg week right?

accurate

ending this post, i need u guys to pray for my studies and my well-being here, i hope everything runs smoothly throughout the whole semester. im still having trouble adjusting myself to the new environment, i know i will faced a big problem if i still cant adapt to all these firsts, but yeah i hope everything went well as i planned. and also, im really sorry, my writing has becoming so rusty, it's been a while since the last time i read a book (aside law books ofcourse).

and, i .. really really miss my little sister, safiya




miss waking up to this :(

ok now im going to take a nap cs im so freaking tired and sleepy. au revoir !

8 August 2017

All things Bright and Beautiful

After practically 3 months of not utilising my brain, my writing skills has becoming so rusty. You can tell by reading my latest posts (starting from..May?), albeit working part time at Shukor & Co for 3 consecutive months, which i admit twas the most productive 3 months of my life, it somehow doesnt helped me to be more intellectual in person. My mind works at a snail pace with it still remaining in hibernation mode. I need to change the way I live & engaging myself with more interpersonal/basic at-home skills- be a morning person, do more outdoor activities/gardening, help with house chores/cooking, less spent on my phone, spend more time with safiya, keeping my stuff clutter-free, read more non-fiction books, et cetera

Look at me, alive and Chicking


A little life update - i got accepted into Law school

For the first time in my life, i wasnt really thrilled about it. A plethora of emotions suffocated me at a time. I was grateful, it was my first choice after all. Some of my acquaintances didnt even get into their first choices. Some didnt even get to enter a university/educational institutions for their tertiary studies. I hope everything is at ease for them. All those hours road journey to Kl for an interview which only lasted approximately 15 bloody minutes, money spent along the way, physical and mental fatigue we felt, especially my dad who obviously didnt have enough rest due to heap of works he had in his office, it was all paid off, thank you didnt suffice !

The only thing that bothered me is im still unsure of my decision, i remember the scruples i had in studying law during my foundation. The rigours, the challenges that i had to tackle made me realise that it certainly isn't for the wishy-washy, weak-minded (cough*me*shrugs). And i dont know if im ready for the 2nd round, devoting my soul for another 4 yrs in this course. All in all, i eventually took it up. Ive come all the way for this, and i hope i enjoy my degree life as much as i enjoy my sem breaks, with EXCELLENT & CONSISTENT GPA, SUPPORTING MATES & FINANCIALLY STABLE WITHOUT BURDENING MY PARENTS MUCH & CREATING MORE MEANINGFUL MEMORIES AS A STUDENT. I believe if He has designed this path for me, it is really for me, He knows im able to do this. All i need is having faith in myself, give myself chance to do things out of my comfort zone, teach myself to not afraid of people expectations, always give best shots at everything which overall, focusing more in investing in myself. 

Here’s some quotes i live by, I dont remember where i read it, but it slightly sounds like this

The road you're trudging now may seem uphill. Keep trudging it. You will be able to strut proudly later on.

and

Remember what strength is? Strength is when you do not give up when everyone else expects you to do so.

I believe some of you had read those somewhere, i also do the same until now i realize how impactful those words in my dreading situations right now.

Feeling good? now lets hop into some less stress-inducing matters

Yesterday i went through all my old photos in the laptop, the 7 yrs old me, the 9 yrs old me, the 11 yrs old me, the 14yrs old me. I feel so content looking at those, childhood memories suddenly flooding my mind, and i cant resist keeping them to myself, regardless how ugly i looked back in 2010. I shared some of them with my closest primary school babes, Umairah and Sarah. From cursing each other to finally spill more memories which some i had forgotten ! It was fun, even though the conversation went virtually. It was so exciting when we discovered a lot more secrets of each other, our crush, boyfiends, boys we hate, girls we hate, how we managed to get boyfiends/secret admirers looking like that...hahahaha. We were so wild during those days, so carefree :D Did i mentioned our old photos? ohmygosh we looked adhoribble 


2017 us !


2010. what the actual..yes we looked adhorrible


It all started with one photo...which was the photo above


 their reactions are priceless, sarah is the most polite/naive among us, she just utter the f word hahahaha
 I will just share the highlights of our conversations. reminiscing our kafa days !




we used to have a lot of squabbles with boys, it even involved physical fights haha. Girl power, when its the boys' turns to attack, we ran into girls' toilet/prayer room to save ourselves. Genius.

Here goes the naughty part, reminiscing our lovey-dovey days. Imagine, we were only in standard 4, and already exchanged love letters with the boys in standard 6 ! It was in 2008 ! I couldve slapped the so-called innocent 10 years old me xD




 I LAUGHED SNORTS AND TEARS AT THIS. SARAH GAVE HER HOME PHONE NUMBER TO HER CRUSH, IN 2008, I RATHER DIE
see? one of the hottest standard 6 boys just asked sarah to date 


we were so wild and badass during those days, no wonder we always got vicious look from girls seniors, and i still remember one of them even spilled to a discipline teacher my relationship with one of the hottest standard 6 boy (even girls from other school want to date him!) after the news spread, we eventually became the talk of the whole school. fortunately the teacher didnt take action, or informed my parents, maybe because my grades were good, not even declining even though i was busy exchanging letters with him ! hehe

i couldnt exposed the rest of the conversations bcs a lot of names were involved & also a lot of humiliating experience were shared!

now, i realized i had an amazing childhood memories, we were so fun, yet carefree. we went thru ups and downs together, joys and tears, it was actually sad that i had lost contact with majority of us. however it feels more awkward to start everything from the beginning again, cause nothing will be the same. i promised with all my might, i hope the current friendship i had with all my friends and loved ones, will always strengthen from time to time, blossoming until death separates us.

USA, i still remember vividly how the 12 years old Umairah, Sarah and me creates the abbreviation of us. we came up with the name while sashaying to the canteen, for lunch break ! Ha-ha

29 July 2017

{mal}

not a long time ago, she told him, 'i really wanna dance with you. not the crazy-fun-jumping-around kind of dance. but the slow kind. the one where i can just cling on to you. my hands wrapped around your neck, and your big hands placed just right around my waist. our bodies, tight, against each other. our bodies moving according to the rhythm. synchronized, slow dance. our favorite songs on speaker.  just us, in the moment. how vivid and beautiful'

thus she made a list of songs she could dance to with him, if that day ever comes. but when it suddenly did, she was flustered. nervous, excited, a plethora of emotions suffocated her at once. she trusted her guts and chose three songs, randomly. they just came into her mind. and she just realized that they were perfect. absolutely perfect for the first dance.





3 blissful months

remember my last two posts back in early may when i said im going to blog more about my working experience in a legal firm in a week or two?

GUYS ITS HV BEEN 3 FREAKING MONTHS & YESTERDAY WAS OFFICIALLY MY LAST DAY WORKING MY OH MY IM SO DONE W MYSELF

it was truly an amazing ride, first, now i had a taste of what the legal profesion entails. preparing NoDs, summons, e filing, how important legal diary is and yada yada. from zero knowledge on legal stuff until now alhamdulillah i feel some sparks of interest burning in myself in law, course that inshaallah i will devoted my soul in for 4 yrs ahead.

well the result will be out on thursday, 3rd august (thanks Megat for constantly reminding annoyed me with the date), hopefully things will turn out the way i planned, but i believe His are better.

other than that, i am utterlyimmensely SO SO GRATEFUL that i hv such an awesome officemates. sumpah, kat firm lain susah nak rasa atmosphere macam ni. In the morning we usually had some carefree banters while having breakfast, not in the pantry but at our own desk. It was a great kickstart to a busy day! Kak Su will play misteri jam 12 (its from a singapore radio station, Ria Fm if im not mistaken) just to feels some chilly vibes while fingers gracefully dancing on keyboards and eyes fixated on the screen. its funny when suddenly theres an audio recording of the ghosts voice and we will stop doing what we were doing and listen to it attentively, when it started to sound ridiculous we will laugh like a maniac. sometimes Casey the pengacara for that misteri jam 12 also will play some weird sounds of ghost laughing or moaning etc and all of us were like...*facepalm* cause we think casey go overboard haha. i miss their chuckles and jokes we made every single day

done with a few horror stories, its Kak Mira's turn to play some songs of our choice (yes kak mira ni macam dj dalam office, request je lagu apa pun) from youtube. Kak Su lah paling banyak request hahahah. Surprisingly her favourites were always from 20th century vibes !  Some of them that i love the most were Air Supply- Making Love out of Nothing at All, Oh Carol (cant remember whos the singer), Backstreet Boyss songs, Celine Dion - Alive. Kalau haritu kitorang tengah high (high means we were sleepy) Kak Su will request songs from Cleopatra Stratan, a Spanish kid back in 2000s that used to be Kak Su's fav jams during her high school years. Obviously the songs were in Spanish. But i enjoyed it, u guys can google her and listen to some of her songs. My suggestion - Ghita & Zunea Zunea. Trust me this kid is great. Also Kak Su's fave was Maher Zain, Medina cause she said the kid's voice in that songs is like me, trust me i was treated like a 6 yr old kid there. Friday, Islamic talks (ceramah) will blasted out of the radio. Add on some nasyid songs also, cause its friday..

Sometimes Kak Mira will just play the radio, usually Era Fm, Sinar or Hot fm. kalau keluar je lagu aiman tino semua cakap 'ha ni kawan hang tengah menyanyi ni tasnim' and my usual replies will always be 'HA TU LA ADIK KAK MIRA SEMUA LAGU LELEH'

disclaimer : if youre from North side of Msia u will understand the dialogue above

Me ? Being the youngest i feel its better to just follow the flow. Dont get me wrong, theres no seniority stuffss there. Tapi i feel like since im the youngest i should hv some attitude there. Kak Su is in her mid 30s, same with the rest of them. But i still download my Spotify app in my computer at my own cubicle, because when i feel like i dont want to listen to the songs played by them, i will just play mine. Other than poking each other, Facebook junkie these two, Kak Su and Kak Mira always shared funny videos by tagging me along. Im now into facebook guys, bye twitter u lame

My boss in my department was En Amir, a very very down to earth in person, never scold me even when i make numerous mistakes, even repeating it on the next day. He gave a lot of advices, guide me a lot in tasks im assigned to. He even give tips for my interview (refer my last post) and always wishing me luck and also follow up with my life updates. He was like a father to me there, very soft-spoken and cool man. He always on and off from court and office, also treats his staff kindly, the other day he brought red, ripes rambutans from his grands' dusun, i almost finish them all by myself

Hahaha besides En Amir, En Amirul was also one of my bosses, hes the one who always give me difficult tasks with difficult instruction that took me almost days to digest how to do it. But hes really kind and genuine, and of course full of jokes, love to tease people esp kak su. my laugh box probably be very exhausting by now due to too much laughing for 3 months consecutively

Lastly, two boys who were 5yrs older than me by mistakes whose i never adress them as Abang Megat and Abang Shahrul but 'HANG AKU' only when talking to each other. Other than non stop collab with each other annoying me with their never ending rants and silly jokes, they also questioning me on why i took law instead of Masscom, i can be like mira filzah, or since im kayu i can be like fattah amin. Rude. These are the types of people who always making me doubt myself and my decision. Shouldnt even exist

ok back to business, theyre just chambering students there. and also i always look up into them when it comes to degree studies and what not, they always shared their amazing experience. side jokes tu common la even tengah serious talk pun sempat lagi buat lawak. Shahrul, he's damn hard-working, always offer to help, currently on diet. Megat, i hv so many things to talk about this guy. He's snobbish, swine, always late, careless, snarky & has weird taste in music -some of them are good i cant deny. other than that, hes sweet sometimes (the way he talked to his girlfriend otp got me dead like wtf is this the real u), cares a lot, shares a lot, witty, kind-hearted and f hard-working, always stay back in the office when there are shitloads of work. Hes enthusiast and strong coffee, body wired with energy, fond of intellectual discussion, always talks about new stuff, good movies and introduce new musicWe either engage in carefree banters or intelligent debates. Lately i hv so many names, Cenim, Nanim was the name he called me cs he said its manja (this time i wished i was dead). Also care about my future undertakings, he also once helped me with my upcoming interview, and keep up to date with degree intake results which happens to be next week. I couldve thanked him forever for that. You'll never read this but, i pray the best for you in the future

Thats all i could share here, there were so many things i wanted to share but im afraid they were confidential and quite a privacy, id rather keep them to myself. Wrote this down cause my sentimental+forgetful arse will definitely read this again in the future. Such a peak to an olden days is fascinating right? Now that im currently unemployed, anticipating for the upcoming result day, i will definitely miss the working vibes.



Till next post <3 (probably next three months) lmao

Au revoir

12 June 2017

Feet dont fail me now

Hello

I'm not gonna apologize for the little hiatus since my last post because there's no words to express the limbo of thoughts that I've been a captive of. Right now, certain things (actually just this one thing) in my personal life isn't going swimmingly well, however I was finally able to pry myself out of bed for something a little more productive today.

I had interview for degree in law two days ago

Alhamdulillah, things going just fine. I have confident that i will be accepted to uitm law school, but yes, Allah plans best. I will just keep on praying. However of course there was a time, especially when i was driving alone, i will think back about life. Like, i was wrong since the beginning. Or to be specific, why did i even choose law. i shouldve be a doctor instead, a pharmacist or anything else. Well its just 1 of 1000 things that ive been thinking about these past few weeks. naahh, lets just sink that in :'))

Things are just, wrong. since the beginning.

***

sincerely, the overthinking anis tasnim <3

Anyway, I had iftar together with syahidah yesterday, technically it was our last meeting before she will getting hitched. There are so many things we had catch up yesterday, we talked about life, future, a little bit of gossiping. She never changed, i mean, us. We still did all the silly things like we used to do. Like yesterday, we drop by at 7E just to take SELFIES and after that pretending to buy mineral waters to cover up our silliness. LOL.






 The separation, was a bit sad, especially when she said 'our next meeting, will be on my wedding day'. it was ... sad

well, adios and salam ramadhan everyone xx !!

6 May 2017

Life after asasi

Hellooooo !!!


Its been more or less 3 weeks since the last time I updated my blog. Lets be frank, my new year’s resolution to blog more this year…is not happening hahaha :’) I left Asasi about 3 weeks ago, and nothing much had changed recently. Still having the withdrawals, missing my friends, housemates, the great taste of penumbuk mangga (mango punch). ohh..I always had mango punch for lunch, dinner ! The sweetness and richness of the mango itself is something that ive been dearly craving for days. Even if I had class at 8 in the morning, dropping by at the drinks stall to buy mango punch is a must. Starting your day with the only mango punch specially made in uitm dengkil, is really..something, you will feel great for the whole day ! okay hyperbole detected ^^ but seriously, mango punch has become my holy grail ever since, I desperately want it right now…… other than that, I also miss my ‘lepak’ place - the wakaf ! the wakaf is just the opposite of my house, my house is on level 3 by the way. I always find solace at the wakaf, so many things had been shared there with my friends, so many secrets had been spilled there. And wakaf is like a ‘rest and go’ station for the Dahlia girls, like they will sit there while waiting for their friends before/after class, or just baring-baring. So many birthday parties had been held there, farewell party, since my house is really the opposite and we’re only on level 3, almost every word uttered by the girls can actually be heard, apatah lagi time korang karaoke lah, gossipping lah. Sometimes listening to all the rants and listening to all the songs with wrong lyrics that you guys nyanyi, really amused me. So its some kind of stress reliever la jugak, even sometimes annoying af sebab bising kan. But yeah, I miss the wakaf, I usually spend most of the time there, alone, drown in my own ocean of thoughts, it is really peaceful, especially early in the morning.


Enough with throwback sessions, lets face the reality. Life update ? after two weeks of repeating the same thing over and over again - eating-sleeping-reading-online-eating-sleeping-reading-online..the list goes on - I finally decided to start scouting for jobs. My only sole purpose is of course I need my money grows in my bank account. Alhamdulillah I got a job at a legal firm owned by my one of my dad’s friend/ex-batchmate back in IIUM. To be frank, im not applying there by myself, my dad just merely texting his friend who is now my boss and the next day, is my first day there. Thank you so much for this golden opportunity :’) Its been a week (well, not even a week- 4 days since last Monday is a public holiday so I started working on Tuesday). I can say that I can cope myself very well, get along with the staffs very well. I am the youngest there, since I just finished asasi. So they don’t know what to expect from me. I reckon my job scope basically revolves around arranging files, typing, photostate/printing stuffs or READING FILES, oh you know all the things that freshies do on their firsts days *blowing nails* but damn not *slaps hard in the face* Past few days Ive been completing almost 10+ files related to summons - serve judgement, aos, deraf penghakiman, saman tnb. So many terms im not familiar with but I can say im just a fast learner. What I am most grateful for is the staffs there, since im the youngest, I was treated like…how should I say this? But I looked like a youngest child in the family. They are very friendly and helpful, even when they are super busy , they still help me whenever I asked them on how to do this and that. Besides being busy, they joked around among themselves a lot that I laugh tears every day. Did I just said my only sole purpose is for salary so that the numbers in my bank account growing ? I was wrong, being there for just 4 days - I learned a lot. I realized these are the things im going to learn in degree years soon since I was placed in litigation section. Also my chambering days soon inshaallah will be easy since im already doing the stuffs that the chambering students do. Determination, self-perseverence, hardwork, responsibility are the things im currently instilling in myself. Because all the cases revolves around local people and big company, one tiny mistake, you will face a heavy consequences which I myself don’t know what its going to be. What stays in the office, stay in the office. Focus is everything. My journey is still long there, so I cant say much. Lets wait for another two weeks or so :)


Life update ? my life has been going upside down in two days !! - but in a good way. Today i spend the whole day sleeping, the next day i find myself eyes fixed on computer screen, fingers gracefully typing, forehead wrinkles, lip-syncing the songs played on the radio, surrounded by mountains of files in my own cubicle. 2 minutes later i am crouching on the floor searching for missing files/papers or even a pen. An hour later i run down skipping steps on the stairs to quickly print out all the drafts i had completed since the printer machine located at the lower floor (the one in our floor is broken :/ ), sealed them in their respective files, and send them to my boss' room for him to check for errors. After that, stretching arm, have another two sips of coffee & open a new file. Crazy. 

Adding on, 45 minutes driving to and from the office, dealing with heavy traffic every single day, doing big kid stuff everyday - im now officially an employed adult, a working adult, AN ADULT - so not funny :(

Im 11 btw, bye

P/s : this is such a short and messy blog post - really had no direction when I started typing haha but thanks for reading :D

31 March 2017

Wham !

Ola !

Did any of you notice that exclamation mark over there ? Unusual isn't it ? Teehee, that's because I'm suuuuper duper excited to be blogging again ! I've missed my little comfortable space where I can just write and for the longest time, spilling my thoughts and what not. So many things to write but so little time :'( I've been sooo busy with the assignments (for carrymarks of course) and final exam, and thats why I couldn't find the time to update my blog




place i wanted to be right now 

But I'm currently in the midst of my final semester exam, so im going to make this really short as possible. 3 papers down, 4 to go ! First week of examination was smooth-sailing albeit filled with the sense of trepidation at more upcoming papers. i think im doing well on Economics (last tuesday), on Introduction to Law III aka Law 087  (last thursday) and the recent paper was Fundamental of Shariah aka CTU086 (yesterday) was a complete opposite. I admit i wasnt really prepared for that paper, i did a bit because i keep on chanting 'this is the last time i open this book-this is the last time i open this book' so i just wanted to give the best of me. and yeah..another one perhaps because the credit hour was 2.0 and i personally think i can do well since i already learned Syariah subject in high school, but nahh i kinda flop yesterday. but lets just pray for the best and i really hope my CTU marks doesnt spoiled my final cgpa soon. 

Its okay, let the past be the past, my upcoming papers was Introduction to Law II aka Law037 (this coming Thursday) and Psychology and Criminology aka Law 039 paper on this friday. Since i have a lots of time to prepare for both, im aiming for As for both subject. please please aminkan ! and also next week there are another two papers which are Contemporary Global and Legal Issues aka Law 088 and also Academic Writing as the last paper on wednesdayyy and yeayyy end of final exam !


I dont have any plan on what im going to do after foundation, i have approximately 5 months break before degree life starts on September, and i personally not readyyy to enter degree years. But lets just sink that for a moment, because i wanted to enjoy every little pleasure i had here in UiTM Dengkil. I had so much fun here, surrounded by good, thoughtful and wacky people who accepted me and always have my back, im totally grateful for that. This place had witnessed how much i had grown and changed to a better person, compared to the first time i set my foot here. It was a crazy ride despite the pressure and stress i had to deal with everyday. well im going to blog more on it soon inshaallah after im done with my final okay ? and also, Happy April ! to more cups of coffee and late night staying ups  

x

3 February 2017

DIY Lipstick Organizer

Im broke guys, seriously. this past few days i had been on and off from kiosk bertam and my grandma's house. kiosk bertam because i made frequent visit to Watson and Guardian to buy some makeup and beauty care stuffs etc etc. my beauty stuff obsession is currently at its prime, guys. rip my money. also, went to grandma's house quite often this week bcs safiya (my little sister) always wanted to play with her all time ultimate favourite play mate qamarina (my 5 yrs old cousin). and also my grandma always invited us to have lunch at her house so yeah. so today i made a decision to stay at home and enjoy my time of my life while it stills because im going back to dengkil tomorrowwww ! and the fact that i havent completed my assignments .. yada yada just make it worse.

back to business, yesterday while i did spring cleaning my room, ive came out with an idea of making a DIY lipstick organizer after i saw this few boxes. and today it is done !



i found out this two boxes are suitable to be used as a lipstick organizer according to their shapes. so i decided to paint it in white. it took me two days because i apply thick layer of the paint so that when it dries, the brown colour of this box will be fully covered. also to make it looks bouncy and creamy like a whip cream (?)  



left this outside under the sun for half day


tadaaaa


ready to be used ! i left half of my lipstick in college, so i put other stuffs first



yeayyy super productive dayy and ofcourse the satisfaction is higher when you the one who made it. this one is very effective and can be used for a longer time tho. it may be imperfect, flaws here and there but hey, give a pat to yourself because you made it. very cost-saving tho


the satisfaction face. plus, loving the warmth of morning sunkiss

oh and also one of  my recent purchase at Watson is Good Virtues Co Day Cream Moisturizer. I was overwrought looking at the packaging and grab it to the counter without any hesitation. also because ive read many reviews regarding it and it works pretty fine on them. the price also pretty affordable for its beautiful packaging and also the moisturizer comes with pump ! all moisturizer need to have pump guys !



also contain habbatus sauda (black seed) which made me eager to try it on because ive never tried any product containing habbatus sauda before and i hope it works wonder on me and i will try to make a review of it by the end of this month ! stay tuned ;D

so yeah, i should stop here, my homeworks ARE waiting. overall, i feel bad because this post is quite short since i have so many things to share, but i still hope this post will inspire you to try making a lipstick organizer, or ANYTHING with ANY RECYCLED/REUSED stuff from your home, on your own ! it doesnt costs you a lot, i guarantee all the tools required will not burn a hole in your pocket. and also u can help saving the earth by recycling all this stuff into something new and convenient to be used for a longer time ! Score.

well, i will end it here. thanks for reading. Au revoir <3