Wham !

Ola !

Did any of you notice that exclamation mark over there ? Unusual isn't it ? Teehee, that's because I'm suuuuper duper excited to be blogging again ! I've missed my little comfortable space where I can just write and for the longest time, spilling my thoughts and what not. So many things to write but so little time :'( I've been sooo busy with the assignments (for carrymarks of course) and final exam, and thats why I couldn't find the time to update my blog. 

place i wanted to be right now 

But I'm currently in the midst of my final semester exam, so im going to make this really short as possible. 3 papers down, 4 to go ! First week of examination was smooth-sailing albeit filled with the sense of trepidation at more upcoming papers. i think im doing well on Economics (last tuesday), on Introduction to Law III aka Law 087  (last thursday) and the recent paper was Fundamental of Shariah aka CTU086 (yesterday) was a complete opposite. I admit i wasnt really prepared for that paper, i did a bit because i keep on chanting 'this is the last time i open this book-this is the last time i open this book' so i just wanted to give the best of me. and yeah..another one perhaps because the credit hour was 2.0 and i personally think i can do well since i already learned Syariah subject in high school, but nahh i kinda flop yesterday. but lets just pray for the best and i really hope my CTU marks doesnt spoiled my final cgpa soon. 

Its okay, let the past be the past, my upcoming papers was Introduction to Law II aka Law037 (this coming Thursday) and Psychology and Criminology aka Law 039 paper on this friday. Since i have a lots of time to prepare for both, im aiming for As for both subject. please please aminkan ! and also next week there are another two papers which are Contemporary Global and Legal Issues aka Law 088 and also Academic Writing as the last paper on wednesdayyy and yeayyy end of final exam !

I dont have any plan on what im going to do after foundation, i have approximately 5 months break before degree life starts on September, and i personally not readyyy to enter degree years. But lets just sink that for a moment, because i wanted to enjoy every little pleasure i had here in UiTM Dengkil. I had so much fun here, surrounded by good, thoughtful and wacky people who accepted me and always have my back, im totally grateful for that. This place had witnessed how much i had grown and changed to a better person, compared to the first time i set my foot here. It was a crazy ride despite the pressure and stress i had to deal with everyday. well im going to blog more on it soon inshaallah after im done with my final okay ? and also, Happy April ! to more cups of coffee and late night staying ups  ♥

x

spm

Assalamualaikum w.b.t.

SPM. I have left SPM for about 3 months now, and honestly, it's a huge relief.
I worked so hard for SPM. So when I get my results, Insha Allah I'll be thankful. The thing I am most scared of, is not getting results which aren't straight As, but that I won't be thankful for what I'll be receiving.
I'm scared that I'll be depressed which I shouldn't be because Allah has given me so much already.

So I'm reminding myself NOW, that no matter the outcome, it won't affect my future.
It won't help me in attaining Allah's love, it won't help me during akhirah when I have to answer Allah's questions. Allah won't even ask how many As I'll receive for SPM.

So my fellow batchmates, don't you fret if you don't receive what you dreamt for. May the results we'll be receiving in less than 24 hours initiate our will to do better.
Be thankful and remember that the results do not determine your success in life.
Don't torture yourself because of it, don't kill yourself because of it. Heck you could get 11Ds, but if you have a will to drive yourself to success, then I'm sure you will find a way.

We have a long way ahead after this.
I pray for our success in dunya and akhirah and may we all attain Allah's mercy and love, insha Allah.

In 5 years, insha Allah I'll be holding a degree in law, biiznillah.
Good luck to all SPM-ers 2015, may you all be thankful for whatever result you receive.

throwback pmr 2013

Its a pause

Hi assalamualaikum ! *krik krik*

gosh its dusty here. tak sangka lama gila aku tak update blog. sebelum ni sekadar jenguk jenguk jaa. gosh i miss spilling out my thoughts here. last update tahun lepas kot. sebenarnya banyak gila benda yg aku nak share dalam blog ni sejak awal tahun haritu.

first week handle form one students, lepas tu jumpa mamat korea datang sekolah. then, selesaikan konflik dalam bkp, lepas tu struggle untuk up1, lepas tu ada crush kat dia tu lah dia ini lah macam macam, lepas tu aku minat gila kat harry potter, aku habis khatam 3 buku first dia dalam masa seminggu ja sebab addicted sangat. and i miss reading harry potter at 3 am tsk tsk. lepas tu struggle untuk mid year term exam and result aku hancur lebur jatuh gaung ditimpa gunung everest memang teruk ahh result, so lepas ni memang kena pushh gila gila punya untuk trial. lepas exam mid year terus busy dengan hari sukan, preparation untuk hari guru and lastly ada kem kokurikulum and perkampungan ilmu in one week ! ya Allah i will miss this memoriess T.T tak boleh bayang macam mana nak tinggalkan sekolah nanti sebab aku rasa macam sayang sangat dekat semua orang.

lepas ni anis, tak boleh main main dahhh. trial spm kot, trial ni laa yg akan menentukan hg boleh pi london ka dak. so kepada readers yg mungkin sedang membaca ni, maafkan segala kesilapan saya sekiranya ada and doakan saya tau. rasanya sampai sini ja kot dulu. lepas spm aku update banyak banyak. sayang blog ni sangat sangat hiks

okeh duty call, tata !

p/s - my birthday is on trial spm what a great life

after final

I don’t really have the mood of writing anyway, but to be honest i miss spilling out my thoughts here ! since final exam is already over recently (I mean yesterday), I cant wait to cross things out of my list-what-to-do-after-final-exam !  for those who still don’t seat for final exam or your final exam is just around the corner, all the best k. well im saying this because im pretty sure that my school is the only school which held the final exam earlier than ever =p


well, after 3 freaking weeks of stress, palpitations and anxiety, finally I have a chance to so-called pampering myself. but Im not really sure that pampering myself is a thing that I must do because I don’t really work hard on certain subject (cough physics cough syariah cough quran sunnah cough addmath).  I just crazily struggle on my fav subject or so-called quite easy subjects such as English and sejarah, and oh btw maths was quite easy though ! I utterly hope that I can attain A+ for one or two subjects so that I can enter the best class next year.

still, I cant believe that I will enter the busiest year of my entire life I guess, spm year ! gosh, I must wake up really. I must aced the exam, I must score 11A+ to make sure I have a bright future and all. as cliché as it might be, spm is important since it will be your only ticket to enter your lifelong goal university.


to make sure im ready to face it, the first thing that i must change about myself is, vanished from the realm of social networks. I cant deny that social network is very contagious, and social network also cant distract your studies and all, and mostly social networks also is a medium for attention-seekers out there (including me haha cant help) *punch my face* I must wake up !

bye, thanks for reading anyway ^^

Target

11 subjects. kalau boleh, semua nak bolot 11 A+. tapi, disebabkan ke-busy-an aku yang melampau ni, maka macam takde harapan nak bolot semua A+. so my target is..

5 A +   4 A  2A-/B

tahulaa, kita kena berani target tinggi-tinggi kan, dare to dream big. taapi aku tahu level aku sekarang ni macam mana, so aku rasa 5A + tu pun dah berbaloi la. cukup untuk masuk 5 IK kelas first tahun depan. tolong sesape yang bace ni, doakan saya !!!!

A + - sejarah, syariah, quran sunnah, english and chemistry

A    - biology, physic, math, bahasa melayu

B    - addmath, arab

tahu kenapa aku target addmath aku B, sebab tajuk differentiation dah buat aku jadi bengong 360 darjah huhu. bahasa melayu aku tak pernah dapat A sejak form 3 (kecuali pmr je first time dapat A). and sejarah memang aku target A + , because i think ive well-prepared for it

till next post, byeee (^,^)

Midnight Thoughts

somehow i feel like, i had waste a lot of time in my life, since im thirteen until now, sixteen. when im in primary school, i was once a clever student, who always attained excellent grades every time during exams. i am clever at almost everything, i am good at time management, im a very hardworking girl, i have soft spot for my family, old women and school, i always represent my school in so many competitions such as nasyid, story-telling and others. i also had received Best Student trophy in primary school level from kdsm (koperasi dagang seni malaysia).  i dont miss myself when i was around 10 to 12 years old. but i miss being who i was when im 10 to 12 years old. oh it was sad reminiscing the old times

nowadays, my exam results have always become a big let-down to my parents. i used to keep my mouth shut every time my mom ask about my exam results, or i just let her know the subjects with good grades. my mom is not stupid, but im feeling bad for lying to her all this while. im not lying, i just dont want to make her feel, disappointed with me. im just a bad daughter. i know, the very excruciating pain she had to bear while giving birth to me around 4 am in morning, how strong she is raising me and my other sibs up until who we are now, how beautiful her heart is, always be the best motivator, counselor, and more importantly, always pray for me so that i can be a successful person. I'm sorry for being such a nuisance to you. I'm sorry for not spending most of my time with you.im sorry for raising my voice while talking to you whenever im stress (ya Allah forgive me !!). I'm sorry if my presence only cause you anger. I'm sorry for not being a good kid. I'm sorry for being a disappointment to you. ya Allah please...please grant the most significant person in my life, both mom and dad Your jannah. because they really deserve it. and ya Allah, please forgive my unforgivable misakes that id made all this while

Success is the best revenge - Kanye West

my favourite quote that inspires me all the time. revenge ? yeah because im not a loser, im a winner. im going to be the winner soon, im going to change my life now, with success inshaaAllah. i believe that i have a better future, i believe that i will have a blessed life soon, i believe that i can make my parents happy with myself. im sick being who i am right now, that feeling when your results is among the worst in your class. i hate it. guys, do pray for my final coming soon, i will make a revenge..

Coffee ?

Hi assalamualaikum semua !

Haa harini exam sejarah paper 3. kiranya warm up PAT lah. PAT yang sebenar bakal menyusul seminggu akan datang. aku dah kata sejak cuti seminggu dulu, 3 minggu tu sekejap je habis. tup tup, haa lagi seminggu nak exam. to be honest aku takut la jugak exam kali ni. sebab aku macam tak prepare apa langsung. walaupun aku buka buku, tapi aku macam tak dapat apa langsung dari pembacaan aku tu. ((sigh))

nak kata stress, tak sangat. sebab aku macam relax je. contohnya sekarang, sempat lagi update blog iye. alaa sekejap je sebab lama dah tak bukak blog ni huh. btw, baru tadi aku kena brainwash dengan mak aku, jangan minum kopi. sebab, kafein tu boleh memudaratkan kesihatan.tapi cikgu biology aku kata minum sehari sekali takpe. dan sebenarnya tak memudaratkan kesihatan pun.ye la kot. tapi aku pun kadang marah juga dekat diri sendiri, sebab minum kopi. tapi entahlah, aku tengok budak terer especially kat sekolah aku tu haa, berjaga sampai malam sebab minum coffee especially nescafe. budak asrama yang stay up malam-malam buta tu minum nescafe. fatin liyana, idola aku tu, siap study dekat old town lagi untuk stay up malam. kopi old town sangat kuat ok, korang susah nak tidur sampai malam hari seterusnya. idzni yg kata hahah

namun, aku bukanlah seorang yang minum benda mcam kopi ni, mak aku tak pernah ajar. even my mom pun tak pernah minum kopi. ok mommy, i promise ill never drink coffee again. walaupun aku sebenarnya seorang yang susah nak jaga malam, 5 minit je dah ngantuk.

tapi, demi masa depan yang cerah tanpa sebarang penyakit dek minum kopi tetiap hari, (takde laa tiap2 hari), i will never drink coffee, and i will study hard, in a smart way. aku dah browse kebaikan kopi tadi, nah link dia - http://mforum.cari.com.my/forum.php?mod=viewthread&tid=728802

kebaikan dia memang banyak, dapat burn fat, dapat meningkatkan prestasi otak, dapat menghilangkan pening kepala. i'm amazed. taaaapi, bila baca keburukan dia.. tak digalakkan untuk perempuan sebab berisiko tinggi mengalami keguguran. i dont want

too blessed to be stress

bagi aku, there're no point of being stress because there are still many things that we should feel grateful for. kalau minum kopi just taknak tidur sebab nak study supaya tak stress, stupid. again mommy, im sorry